Friday, July 6, 2012

What Michael Means to Me


JUNE 25, 2012

Michael, you were with me my whole life, but I didn’t really know until that day. I kept track of you, but I didn’t realize until that day. On that day, I was finally stopped in my tracks and could look back at each moment in time that I shared with you.
You had a glow of light around you. A smile, a warmth, a mysteriousness that enveloped you. I see you in my mind and you’re moving, shimmering and spinning. I can’t touch you or put my finger on you because you’re in constant motion.
You brought so much joy to the world.
On that day, time stood still. I remember people coming out onto the streets to mourn. We all cried together in our homes, in record stores, on the internet. The whole world stopped for a few minutes that day.
With your beautiful voice – the most beautiful I had ever heard, you told us stories. You made us feel the deepest emotions inside, like no one else had ever done. You sparked a place that can’t even be named because it has no words. You did that for forty years, even before I was born.
You created a timeless place, a refuge, where I can be myself – one hundred percent.
You invested in art. You put your own time and money into making some of the greatest works of art – pieces that will live on forever and have changed the world.
You told us what mattered – children, the earth, animals, peace, justice.
On that day, I mourned for the passing of youth. Your inner and outer beauty were so incredible. Beauty fades with time, but the inner light continues to shine. People said you were broken, but I knew you were always ready to thrive and show us your power. And you would have done it again.
You made my heart stop, made my jaw drop, made me feel alive, made the juices flow.
I’ve learned so much from you. Learned that passion is important. Learned that whatever I am doing, it has to be meaningful to me, it has to matter. You led me to some wonderful people, other souls who were also touched by your lightening.
I learned that music is one of the keys to human existence. It’s something that is strictly human and speaks of our vulnerability and ability to love, to share emotion. It comes from the divine.
Michael, I wish I had known all of this before that day. I wish I had known you were there and that I needed your music – that it completes me and moves me forward. But now I know that you were always there for me, waiting for me to discover you. And you will be there forever. You’ll always be in my heart. This time, I promise I will take note of it everday, and I promise I won’t keep it to myself.
Love, SO